This is when I went on a mission to understand my mind - cognitive therapies, and books on psychology, neuroscience, anthropology. I just really wanted to know the way I am in the hopes of managing my inner workings more efficiently. While I learned a lot, I was stuck in my intellect. Knowing a lot of epistemological knowledge but not knowing what to do with it. I was still a long way from embodying this knowledge.

And then I sat for a session where the facilitator asked me to listen to a range of sounds and meditate. I dropped in so easily and found my mind to be quite like never before. My mind was constantly chatting with itself until now (can you relate to that voice in your head too?) and it finally got to rest and listen instead. The intuition kicked in - a knowing that I have to follow this practice deeper. The following years, I received work and trainings from various practitioners in sound, breath, enneagram, and voice. It was a period of remarkable self transformation. It allowed me see who I am meant to be (dharma!), be aware of my present, and it provided tools to bring these two worlds closer.

I do not refer to this practice as healing. It was not healing but simply revealing that changed my life. When you see the many dimensions of reality instead of attaching yourself to one perception, you see your higher self who guides you out of your fear, attachments, and whatever that is that makes you feel broken. This practice gave me the tools to bring together my inner and outer worlds. This embodiment created a steady foundation for moment to moment presence. It allowed me to listen to myself and others.